feel

have you ever feel like unwanted by the person that saying that 'three words' to you?
have you ever feel they said something and it has been forgetten after a second?
have you ever feel they only find you when they need something?

she is a girl who can likes anyone easily.
she's really easily attached to someone who can make her laugh.
she's a girl that smile all alone when someone make a silly jokes.
she's a girl with a big dream and wants to make it true.
but she's overly attached with someone that she thought can change her mind.
that man made her thinks too much for future but 
sometimes made her feel nothing to him.
she always wonder what he thinks about her.
she always wonder did that man meant what he said.
she always wants to be the best for that man.
she tried to be strong, she tried to focus on other thing instead of keep on thinking about that man.
but sometimes she cannot control herself. she cannot deny it, 
she cannot deny it she feels the same way like that man feels for her.
she don't wanna cross the lne that she have made 
because she afraid she migh getting hurt again again and again.
but she's only a girl who love being in love and be loved.
she told herself : "be patient. your time will come. Allah has the best plan.
                           now, you must focus on yurself instead of keep thinking about others. 
                           make your parents proud first. and then your love will come "