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I don't know where I should start from. yeah I will write anything what just came out from my mind. so firstly, if you my followers or my silent readers, my second entry was about how I met him. and that time I was the happiest girl in this beautiful world. how happy I am that time, only He knows. so as you go through the older posts of mine, you can see the flow of my story life. I know its kinda boring because ballik balik pasal love love and love kan. But this is my blog, who cares? it is part of my life and diaries okay ! hee so about three years I have been blogging, mostly I write stories about me and him. so many things happen for past three years. I feel like I was the luckiest girl in this world because I met someone who brought smile, laughter, joy, sorrow, tears, surprise and everything to my life. I just cannot imagine, what my life will turn out be when he's not there for me. I love him. yes I love him after my family. he was the one and only my love. what I can tell you are, he was the first man that proposed me to be his queen of his heart. and I was like heyy its moon down in front of me. I was very shocked and unexpected that day. I was happy that time! 

  But, we as human only can planned, when the fate was written that we are not meant to be together, we have to accept that. I admit that it is really hard for me to move on. To start a new life without someone that I love the most. without the person that almost know all my secret. without the person that love the same thing with me. without the person that you text everyday. without the person that you love to spend time together. without the person that you think in every single day, time, minute and seconds. can you imagine that? Its really takes time. and now every brand new day I try. I hope I can over you. but for the time being, I still can't. 

Dear you, Thank you for everything. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for make me smile and happy for no reasons all this while. Thank you for your time. Thank you for everything that you have done for me. I really appreciate that. No one can replace the sweet of you. No one! I really hope you meet someone better than me but I bet you will never find someone have patience like me. hahaha no lah just kidding. I only can pray for your happiness. That's the only way that I can do to see you happy. Sorry for everything. sorry for hurting you. sorry for push you too much. sorry for disturbing your peaceful life. sorry for all mistakes that I have done towards you. I will not come into your life anymore. I will try to not find you anymore. Again. Sorry and Thank You FAL-S :). 

You are the best thing happen in my life. maybe we met at the wrong time.